Feeling useless but making money

I worry about E a lot lately. I see the support he has in the form of friends all around him at SHC, and can't help but feel as though my support is very minimal in comparison. I want to give him the words he needs, but they seem so cliche, so...fake. And, I don't want to lie to him or tell him something I don't believe in myself.

I suppose I'm glad he's at SHC for a few days, because there he can have those deep philisophical conversations in which I'm not quite qualified to participate and, sadly, I don't find such conversations useful or especially interesting. I can't just make myself like talking about things like that. I'm rather of the state of mind that what we can't see or experience directly is really of little use to me. I suppose I could call myself a tactile person--I am most interested in things I can touch, see, smell, and experience. I don't want to torment myself mentally with difficult conundrums of ethics or morality when I can experience life in a much more alive manner.

Don't get me wrong, I think such thinking is a necessary part of the human existence. I am grateful for people, such as E, that consider difficult questions, applying logic and morals appropriately. I am very glad people find joy in such an endeavor too. A life should be happy in every pursuit.

Intuition. I don't so much think about those questions E gives me, because I tend to go "by my gut", so to speak. "Why is incest wrong?" Because my gut says so. "Why are you agnostic?" Because religions so often leave me empty, I intuitively believe them all to be wrong (though, I must admit, logic speaks on my behalf against the truth of organized religion). But, you know, lack of religion is not necessarily a lack of faith--but, what I have most of all is hope in something beyond this reality, beyond this life.

I should go because I'm writing this at work. I'm now working in an additional section of the library--adminstration. It is full of that hated "red-tape" of bureaucracy of business, but the company is nice and the internet speedy.

Hope it's a great day for all. Sie haben ein gut Abend auch. (that is probably incorrect German, but hey,you have a good night also)