Last Date

Well, it turns out that worrying about K's jealousy was needless. My second date with S was disappointing, in a way.

It became very obvious very quickly that while he's into me, he is interested in a different kind of relationship than I am. Or, rather a lack of relationship...

I'm okay letting this guy go on his way. It is disappointing, on a very female level, learning I don't matter and won't ever matter (even in a small way) to someone I find intriguing and fun. But, I learned from my last relationship that I can't accept a guy just because I'm lonely or want to go out. The fact that finding an intelligent person is nearly impossible only makes it harder to get this whole situation out of my head...

It's strange to write that, because I didn't intend to LIKE him so much. It was an association started only for fun--but I can't do it. I can't really like someone and leave the need for emotional attachment un-addressed.

I do have to say, he was honest. He didn't try to mislead me or hurt me but was straightforward about his intentions and expectations. That's something.

I think he'll make some lucky girl a great catch one day. Just not me.