Leavin' on a Jet Plane

I'll be boarding a flight to take me home to the sunny south in the morning. And, I have to admit, I'm kind of terrified.

While I have talked with people about my reasons to go, and I have talked with myself about why this is a good idea, I still worry it could all end badly.

I _was_ rather excited about the trip up until a couple of days ago--that's when it hit me that I'd be leaving KC and I have no idea when I'll see him again. It just makes my heart ache.

But...but I honestly believe that some drastic changes are needed. I can't just sit around and be apartment girl forever. So, I've made changes in how I apply for jobs and I've made changes in how I communicate with my friends. Now, I'm simply changing the scenery, right?

I'm learning that you really have to be aggressive when you go after what you want in life. So far, I pursued KC with all my verve and heart. Now, I have to do the same for myself and my life--having a group of friends and a reliable job, well, those things have taken new priorities for me after spending so much time alone in this life.

So, tomorrow I will board that airplane with most of my worldly possessions. I will reassure myself that this is a good decision. I will hang on to fact that KC and I are really meant to be together and that we will be after our tough times ease somewhat.

Right. I can do this.