Warning: a boring post

Like I so often do, I'm turning to this blog as a means to simply put my thoughts down and give them some kind of mind-calming structure.

I've very recently begun looking into graduate school once again. I've realized how pitiful my life and career are going to be if I don't continue my education. I don't want to work for the next ten years for less than $10 an hour and no benefits

Oddly enough--and in spite of the push to complete my undergrad degree just a year ago--I think I am more driven today than ever before in my life to improve myself financially and educationally.

But, I have to be honest, I'm scared to try school again. Why? Because I found South to be two extremes for me: 1. I was bored to tears, learning useless information or 2. I was extremely frustrated with complex material (that I wanted to learn) that was presented by very, very bad instructors. Sure, I made the grade either way, but the learning process had no joy for me. I MISS that. Also, what use is an education you can't use? (I feel the need to mention that I took 2 history courses from Professor Kozelsky and Dr. Miller that were the outstanding exceptions. I loved those classes.)

So, here I am, looking into Library Studies/Librarianship programs. Why choose that? Well, I have to be honest with myself--I can't take stress. I just can't. I fall totally apart if my workload is too heavy or if I have an overbearing boss and lots of deadlines to contend with every day. That's not to say I can't handle a lot of work. I work very hard, even unsupervised or alone, and I am highly organized and dedicated to a job once I start it. Also, I don't take the kind of breaks that other people seem to when I'm on the job. If I'm at work, I'm there to WORK! I'm really goal-focused and like to finish something once I've begun it.

Wow, was that paragraph any more a boring cover letter or what?

So, librarianship calls to me for practical reasons. I assume it is not overly stressful but instead sufficiently busy. I also realize it's a career I can take anywhere, no matter what part of the country I settle in next. But, there's still that one not-practical reason: I love the library. I get this happy little feeling every time I leave the building with an armload of new books.

I guess that goes back to the escapism of reading as a kid. I didn't have many friends, but I did have daily literary destinations to take me away from poverty and my friendlessness. (oh, I had friends...I wasn't that pathetic. Just not many chances to "hang out" like so many other kids found in their teen years. I even admit to liking my books more than some of the kids around me.)


So, back to grad school. I'm on the path to GRE study sessions and graduate study applications. (What if I'm not accepted? Library studies isn't offered in very many schools, maybe one a state. )

So...here's hoping this plan works out.